Chapter 17 - Lily asks whether deaf means broken

This was the conversation that hurt most.
She signed:
Vanessa made you deaf because deaf bad?
I stopped.
Then signed carefully:
No. Deaf is not bad.
She pointed toward herself.
Me deaf.
Yes.
Then:
You scared.
There it was.
I had spent three months terrified of losing my hearing.
Lily had noticed.
How do you tell your deaf child:
I was afraid without saying your life frightens me?
I signed:
I was scared because something was happening to my body and I didn’t know why.
Then:
Not because deaf people are less.
She watched me.
Promise?
Promise.
May you like
She hugged me.
That conversation changed the way I talked about disability forever.